9.8.09

Why is it when things are chaotic that the desire is to shutdown? When there's so much to do, why does it have the effect of you wanting to do nothing at all? These are honest questions I ask myself. When I can't get things neatly ordered how I'd like, I'd rather give up on it all.

I'm convinced that I'd let myself go too often if I gave in each time on this.

Speaking with a friend on this tonight, I realize this is a mutual point of struggle for many. It's the fight or flight syndrome that we read about in psychology. A little less fleeing or running away is what I need.